On the prairies January can be a tough month… but sometimes February can be just as daunting. It is one of those swing months that can go either way.
This year, winter wins.
The cold has been unrelenting and the snow just keeps falling. With thoughts of spring deeply buried, my only plan for sanity is to deal with it one day at a time.
We have had so much snow that the access to the backfield has been lost. **sigh** We miss it dearly.
We are still getting out for our daily walks but, especially with the cold, we often spend more time prepping and dressing than walking. Thank goodness for the backyard. It continues to allow for outdoor play.
“Even though February was the shortest month of the year, sometimes it seemed like the longest.” ~ J.D. Robb
I am not going to lie, January has been tough this year with the unrelenting cold and an above-average blanket of snow.
I find myself craving to cocoon but the dogs need to move, so that is what we do.
Even on the most bitter of January days, we are out at least for a short while. Some days it seems that the time getting dressed is longer than the time spent outdoors, but regardless, it always feels good to get some fresh air and then hurry back to the warmth inside.
Windy – White – Wintery – Wishful – January
“Come, ye cold winds, at January’s call, On whistling wings, and with white flakes bestrew The earth.” ~ John Ruskin
For, this is the month when the inevitable happens… winter comes. This year it arrived with a bang, a three-day rain/snow event that left us with wet, heavy snowdrifts along with a new reality.
The dogs didn’t seem to mind although Odin did initially seem a little puzzled.
November is also the month that marks the anniversary of Roland’s passing. It’s been two years now and, for the most part, I feel I am doing better.
But… November has me falling backwards.
The November days, and even more so the nights, are a struggle. I find myself back in that place where Grey lives inside me. I am learning to accept this but am humbled and a little shaken by the loneliness and sadness that still live here.
Roland loved his dogs. I miss him and the life we shared every day.
“Little by little, we let go of loss, but never of love.”
November is not without its splash of colour… and I have my grandkids to thank for this. From October 22 to November 30, five of them have birthdays.
These are but some of the November adoptables. So many great dogs needing good homes…
That leaves my two, Odin and Lacie… where would I be without them! They get me up and out and, more often than not, have me smile.
So yes, November is a tough month and I suspect, for me, that’s just the way it is and will be.
But writing this, and seeing the photos pop up on screen does help.
I guess I have to hold my gratitudes a little closer…
and try to remember to just breathe.
my brain and
two years ago
over who was
to blame about
how big of a mess
I have become
they couldn't be
in the same room
with each other
now my head and heart
share custody of me
I stay with my brain
during the week
and my heart
gets me on weekends
they never speak to one another
- instead, they give me
- the same note to pass
- to each other every week
and their notes they
send to one another always
says the same thing:
"This is all your fault"
my heart complains
about how my
head has let me down
in the past
and on Wednesday
my head lists all
of the times my
heart has screwed
things up for me
in the future
they blame each
other for the
state of my life
there's been a lot
of yelling - and crying
lately, I've been
spending a lot of
time with my gut
who serves as my
most nights, I sneak out of the
window in my ribcage
and slide down my spine
and collapse on my
gut's plush leather chair
that's always open for me
~ and I just sit sit sit sit
until the sun comes up
my gut asked me
if I was having a hard
time being caught
between my heart
and my head
I said I didn't know
if I could live with
either of them anymore
"my heart is always sad about
something that happened yesterday
while my head is always worried
about something that may happen tomorrow,"
my gut squeezed my hand
"I just can't live with
my mistakes of the past
or my anxiety about the future,"
my gut smiled and said:
"in that case,
go stay with your
lungs for a while,"
I was confused
- the look on my face gave it away
"if you are exhausted about
your heart's obsession with
the fixed past and your mind's focus
on the uncertain future
your lungs are the perfect place for you
there is no yesterday in your lungs
there is no tomorrow there either
there is only now
there is only inhale
there is only exhale
there is only this moment
there is only breath
and in that breath
you can rest while your
heart and head work
their relationship out."
while my brain
was busy reading
and while my
heart was staring
at old photographs
I packed a little
bag and walked
to the door of
before I could even knock
she opened the door
with a smile and as
a gust of air embraced me
"what took you so long?"
~ John Roedel (johnroedel.com)
Here on the prairies one never knows what October will bring… will it be cold, will we get snow.
We were fortunate this year, enjoying many mild, sunny days. The cold north winds held off til the end of the month allowing for lots of time to prep the homes and the yards for the winter that lies ahead.
October also marks the beginning of birthday season in my family, not only for the grandkids, but also for Odin.
My big boy turned 3 on Oct 3. Happy Birthday Odin!
It seems like only yesterday that Roland and I first brought you home, one timid, scared pup who allowed only Lacie to get close.
My, how you have grown… and much happier now.
For me, October is a difficult month, so many memories come flooding back. It was on October 2nd, two years ago, that Roland was first symptomatic and diagnosed with brain cancer. Seven weeks later he died and my life changed forever.
He used to plant a small corn crop in a garden plot on the field side of our fence. The summer after he died, I made it into a butterfly garden, secretly wishing and hoping that a butterfly would find his spirit and let him know how very much I love him. Silly maybe, but the thought brings me comfort.
This was the butterfly gardens second summer and it did amazing. Plants and flowers sprung up out of no-where. The mild fall days had the flowers still blooming into late October.
I can not let the month pass without mentioning the many great adoptable dogs I have met while volunteering at Winnipeg Animal Services. Here are but some of their faces. More can be viewed on the Winnipeg Animal Services Petfinder page.
So many great dogs needing good homes…
October brings shorter days reflected in the changing light of our early morning field walks. Thankfully scarves and mitts are not yet needed… so we enjoy what is.
Two good dogs…
“The end of summer is not the end of the world. Here’s to October…” ~ A. A. Milne
Here in Manitoba, September often comes with still warm days and an abundance of blue sky. The difference lies in a shift in the winds and a notable coolness to the breeze, often a welcome reprieve from the summer heat.
The abundance of summer green gives way to subtle changes of yellow and red while gardeners reap their rewards and shake their heads at the speed of summer’s passing .
One of the joys of gardening is the surprises that nature gifts us every year. This sweet little sunflower came about from letting one of the sunflower seeds below the birdfeeder sprout and grow. Next year I hope to have many more.
September is also a time of letting go and starting fresh. A time to embrace the good times that summer afforded us while preparing to tackle new beginnings that bring with them a renewed sense of purpose and excitement.
One of my happiest days was the very first day of the month when, after an 18 month hiatus related to Covid-19 restrictions, I returned as a volunteer to Winnipeg Animal Services. I am so very happy to be back photographing the adoptable dogs. Here are but some of the wonderful faces that I have met so far… great dogs needing good home.
The third weekend of September, I closed down our seasonal site at Debonair Campground. The weekend was warm and the sun still hot making the endearvour bittersweet. But, it was time.
The greatest joy was having my sister visit after 2 years of her not being able to because of the covid restrictions. The weather remained unseasonably warm allowing for plenty of out door time. It was wonderful to have her here and to be able to walk, talk and shop. The dogs enjoyed her company just as much as I did.
“But now in September the garden has cooled, and with it my possessiveness. The sun warms my back instead of beating on my head… The harvest has dwindled, and I have grown apart from the intense midsummer relationship that brought it on.” ~ Robert Finch, Poet
May is the month I daydream about all winter long. It is the time of new prairie beginnings… the new greens of spring, the new warmth of the sun with winds that flow softly from the south.
“Goodbye,” cold north winds. Arrivederci! Adiós!
And then there are all the first happenings… the opening of my seasonal site at Debonair Campground (Thanks to my son, David, for helping me with this), the first seeds planted in the garden followed by the seedlings once the frost is no longer a threat. Happily, the first blossom has already graced the yard while robins and songbirds flit about. How I have missed their cheerful ditties.
The heavy shadow of the covid pandemic still hovers mightily over Manitoba. Our province has been hit hard during this third wave. The restrictions are many and the need to stay at home continues but the blue skies and sunshine make the isolation more tolerable.
Thank goodness I have Odin and Lacie for company. With all these covid challenges, I would be lost without them.
It is wonderful that finally the dogs and I can enjoy our field walks unencumbered by layers of sweaters and coats.
Finding a great big stick mid-field is simply the BEST! Odin proudly carries his treasures back to his yard. Sadly (for Odin) these trophies mysteriously seem to disappear shortly afterwards.
The warmer days allow for more yard fun.
The first of many flowers has bloomed, the beautiful Dahlia. This calls for a photoshoot.
Mid-May bought soaring temps and near-perfect days for enjoying walks through our favourite trails at Bunns Creek.
One of Odin’s favourite walking buds is Sandy. This little cutie is a nine-year-old Jack Russel terrier and one of Odin’s best friends.
This particular day was a warm one. Once we got back home Sandy immediately headed for her pool. Odin was intrigued, but cautious. Maybe next time.
The longer days and warmer temps call out for leisurely evenings to simply bask in the stillness and the light.
Two good dogs…
“The world’s favorite season is the spring. All things seem possible in May.” ~ Edwin Way Teale